[Sobbing]
- Ian? - [Sobbing]
Ian?
What time are they coming for you?
Half an hour.
Right. I'm gonna nip to the shop.
Back in a minute, OK?
You got your passport, Ian?
Up the continental in the rental. Come on.
[ Kraftwerk: Autobahn]
[Bernard] Fresh air.
All right, love?
- Hi. - Hi.
Hiya.
I'll get in the back this time.
Hi, Debbie.
[Tapping]
[Debbie] I must have been out when you called.
- [Natalie coos] - It was hard to get to a phone.
Come on, girl. Yeah.
Come on, girl. [grunts]
Did you remember to take your pills?
Yeah.
- Are they working? - [Cooing]
I had an attack in Berlin.
Oh, Ian, if they're not working
we need to get you a doctor's appointment to change the medication.
We really missed you.
Oh, there's this girl at work called Claire,
and, uh, she's invited us to her flat warming party.
- Hasn't she? - [Natalie shouts]
And I said, um, that we'd go. 'Cause Mum and Dad can look after Natalie.
That way we get a lie in. Don't we?
Daddy. Daddy's home.
- Do you like the Buzzcocks? - Yeah.
We're on tour with them as well.
[Claire] Don't know what you were worried about. He fits in fine.
But he can seem a bit distant to people he don't know. Trust me.
Do you trust him when he's away?
- You know, with other girls. - Totally.
[ Supersister: She Was Naked]
He's so protective, you know. He hates me wearing short skirts.
Goes mad if I talk to other blokes.
He is quite famous now, though, isn't he?
Not to me.
I still wash his underpants.
Do you want to sleep with other men?
What?
Do you want to sleep with other men?
That's a strange question.
Because... if you did...
...it'd be OK.
I'd be OK.
Are you being serious?
When you say a thing like that it makes me think you don't love me anymore.
I don't think I do.
[ Joy Division: Love Will Tear Us Apart]
[Line ringing]
[Woman] Belgian Embassy.
Hello, um...
Can I speak with Annik Honore, please?
One moment.
Annik Honore, bonjour.
Steve! Hey, kill it! Kill it!
Kill it, kill it.
- Something's up. - What?
Rob's got one of his cheesy grins going again.
You've been spending our wages, Rob, or what?
Come on, then, you twisted bastard, out with it.
It's all happenin', boys. Pack your bags, saddle up.
Nineteenth of May we're off to the US of fuckin' A for a two-week tour.
- You're joking? - We're gonna be contenders.
We're gonna be somebodies.
How'd you wangle that one?
I put a lackey band around Tony's cock and balls.
Did it drop off?
I thought we'd celebrate. Bring them here, Terry.
[Steve] Nice one.
[Door opens]
- [Footsteps] - [Door closes]
What are you doing in here?
Who's Annik?
Eh?
How long have you been seeing her?
Answer me, Ian! Don't ignore me!
Eh?
How long have you been seeing her?
Do you love her?
Do you love her, Ian?
[Sobs] I love you.
I really, really love you.
No one loves you like me. [Sniffles] No one.
Just answer me, Ian! Please answer me!
I don't deserve this.
[Door opens and closes]
[Sighing]
[Sobbing and sighing]
Fuckin' hell.
[Sobs]
[Sniffling]
Sorry, Debbie.
I owe you everything.
I love you.
What does that mean?
I'll finish with her.
Please.
[ Isolation]
[Woman] London Euston.
The next train to arrive at platform six.
- Eh-up. You all right, love? - Hello.
- Good to see you. - Hello, love.
- Hello. Hi. - All right?
[Song continues through headphones]
Steve, go and turn the heating off.
I wanna get it colder in here.
[Murmuring, indistinct]
Will you two twats get the fuck out of my studio?
- All right. - Go on, fuck off.
[Song switched off]
[Song switched on]
Got it, Ian. It's good.
It's fuckin' genius, actually.
- [Rainfall] - [Dialling on rotary phone]
[Line ringing]
[Debbie] Hello?
I told her.
[Buzzer rings]
[Woman shouts]
[ Dead Souls]
Fuckin' hell!
Twinny, come on, give us a hand.
Come on, take him your way. Take him your way.
Here, Twinny, get him some water.
[Cheering and applause]
We're Joy Division, you're the crowd. Good night. God bless.
- Was it a bad one? - You've had worse.
Did Annik see?
Everyone saw.
That was superb, that, Ian, mate.
You played a fuckin' blinder.
Who won the fight, Ian or Ian?
It's like Ian knocked Ian out to me.
Twatted himself with a right good uppercut.
- [Door closes] - [Bottle cap hits floor]
- Brilliant! Absolutely brilliant. - Girls, girls, not now.
Hang on. Come with me. Come with the Hookster.
- I'll show you my... - [murmuring]
I'll go find Gillian.
Taking your medication?
For what it's worth.
Chin up. Could be worse.
Could be the lead singer in The Fall.
[Knock on door]
Ian.
- Are you OK? - Yeah.
- I'm so sorry. - I had a fit.
I'm all right now.
[Grunts]
Ian, Debbie on the phone for you.
[Door closes]
- Hello? - [Debbie] Hi.
Hi.
Ian, you are so depressing.
I'm so happy to sit with you here.
Me too.
I don't know what to say.
I never felt this way before.
But...
...at the same time I feel like
I don't really know anything about you, and...
...you don't know me, and...
Well, what do you want to know?
Tell me your favourite movie.
Hmm...
I really like... The Sound of Music.
- What? - Nothing.
- Anything else? - Your favourite colour.
Mine is purple.
Blue. Man City blue.
What is Man City blue?
Well, Man City is a football club.
And they wear blue.
- Ian... - Hmm?
I'm a little scared.
Scared of what?
Scared of falling in love with you.
[Door opens]
[Natalie coos]
[Footsteps approach]
Hiya.
I'm so glad you're home.
I'll make you a cup of tea.
[Door closes]
[Crying]
[ The Velvet Underground: What Goes On]
[Indistinct chatter]
I don't want to hurt you, Debbie.
Ian?
Come to bed, eh?
- Taken my pills. - Ian?
[Running footsteps]
[Line ringing]
Ambulance, please.
[Gagging]
Charcoal.
[Man] Mr Curtis, I am here to tell you that you are well enough to leave,
but you must get some rest for several days.
Just be aware that your condition is extremely weak at the moment.
But I am discharging you.
Thank you.
Well, that's that, then.
[Ian] I don't want to be in the band anymore.
Unknown Pleasures was it.
I was happy.
I never meant for it to grow like this.
When I'm up there, singing...
... they don't understand how much I give.
And how it affects me.
Panic's over. He's here.
Now they want more.
- They expect me to give more. - Just enjoy yourself.
And I don't know if I can.
It's like it's not happening to me,
but... someone pretending to be me,
someone dressed in my skin.
Now we're going to America.
I have no control anymore.
I don't know what to do.
- I was pissed. - [Crowd cheering, muffled]
You're on.
- I need a few minutes. - What?
Go and get Alan from Crispy Ambulance, and fuckin' hurry up.
I'm sorry.
[ Disorder]
Take as long as you need. How long do you need?
You know the words to our songs, don't you?
- Most of them. What? - Get on.
First two tracks, Disorder, Colony, till lan feels better. Twenty quid.
- Serious? - I look like I'm fucking jokin'?
Off! Off! Off!
Shit!
You all right, lan, mate?
Ready to go on?
[Chanting] Ian! Ian! Ian! Ian!
- Ian, talk to me. - [Chanting continues]
- OK. - OK.
[Cheering]
- Where's my 20 quid? - In my "fuck off" pocket.
[Cheering]
Twenty quid. Go on.
I want 50.
You fucker.
[Booing]
Get Hooky off the stage now!
Get off! Fuckin' get off!
You, you fucker!
Get the fuck out!
I don't get it, lan.
I don't get why you're doing this to yourself.
- It's all coming apart. - No, it's all coming together.
Tonight was great. It'll go down in history.
You remember Lou Reed at the Free Trade Hall?
- The riot? - That's right, the fuckin' riot.
Best gig I've ever been to.
It all used to be so simple, everything.
Now everyone hates me. I've made everyone hate me.
No one hates you.
- Even the people who love me hate me. - Debbie?
- And Natalie. - How can Natalie hate you?
- For Christ's sake. - She will, though. I know she will.
You're a good dad, lan.
No, Tony, I'm not. I know I'm not.
If I was a good dad, then I wouldn't be doing all... this.
And what about Annik? She loves you. You love her.
- I hate her. - And you love her.
[Rob] You can't pin all that on us.
We didn't start the fuckin' riot.
Mate, you're pissing up the wrong tree here.
You think I owe you money for the damages? Guess what?
I don't. So shut the fuck up and start suing,
'cause that's the only way you're gonna get a fuckin' bean out of me.
Wanker.
- [Buzzer] - Who the fuck...?
- Hello. - It's lan.
Oh, fuckin' shine a light! Aren't you in enough trouble?
- We need somewhere to stay. - Try a hotel.
I'm skint, and you still owe me some money.
Fuckin' hell! Have I got Barclays tattooed on my forehead?
Get in.
Tea's in the pot, bedroom's in there.
Spare noddys in the drawer.
Is this a bad time?
No! I'm just in the mood for a desperate social call
- from you and Joan of Arc. - [Telephone rings]
Yes?
Debbie! Great!
And what the fuck can I do for you? Need some money, a place to crash?
Fuckin' lightbulb need changin'?
And you don't know where he is.
Quelle surprise.
Something about Derby?
Well, it's nice to know you two are talking properly again.
Listen, Debbie, I don't know where the fuck he is.
As usual, I know fuck all.
Don't I?
Rob, who are you talking to?
Ian.
What, he's there with you?
Is she with him?
Yeah. We're all here. One big fuckin' happy family.
She wants a divorce.
[Bernard] You can sleep here.
Stay as long as you like, lan.
- You hungry? - Yeah.
Ian? I've got an idea.
I've been studying hypnosis.
[Electronic music playing]
[Debbie] lan?
Let me in, love.
Just want to talk.
[Ian] You're mine. Irretrievably.
[Annik] I'm a little scared.
Scared of falling in love with you.
[Ian] This has to be for good.
[Sniffles] I'm sorry.
I owe you everything. I love you. [sobbing]
[Debbie] What does that mean?
[Annik] I've never felt this way before.
[Ian] So it was my life began...
- [Debbie] I don't deserve this. - [Ian] So is it now I am a man
I didn't do enough.
So it be you and I shall grow old
I should have tried harder.
Or let me die
And I could wish my days to be
Bound each to each
By natural...
Hi.
I miss you.
- [Annik] Is everything all right? - I don't know, Annik.
I don't know.
It all feels wrong.
Ian, you are confusing me.
I know. I know I am.
[Ian] Dear Annik,
I know I'm intruding on your life, not you on mine.
I felt as if things were becoming a bit clearer earlier on,
but can now see everything falling to pieces before my eyes.
I'm paying dearly for past mistakes.
I never realised how one mistake in my life
some four or five years ago would make me feel how I do.
I struggle between what I know is right in my own mind,
and some warped truthfulness as seen through other people's eyes
who have no heart, and can't see the difference anyway.
Eh-up, you.
Come on in.
I saw Apocalypse Now at the cinema.
I couldn't take me eyes away from the screen.
What you been up to, then, eh?
On the record, there's Marlon Brando reading The Hollow Men,
the struggle between man's conscience and his heart until things go too far,
get out of hand, and can never be repaired.
Is everything so worthless in the end?
Is there any more?
What lies beyond? What is left to carry on?
[Woman] lan, your room's still here. You know that, don't you?
I know, Mum.
Thanks.
[Ian] I have the feeling the epileptic condition will worsen.
It frightens me.
It's a lie to say "I'm not afraid any more".
There's nothing the doctors can do but try tablets.
I felt I had to tell you this
even though it might change your feelings for me.
I've been thinking of you constantly, trying to rationalise our situation,
thinking of the things we've done.
Images and thoughts prey on my mind,
before my eyes all times of the day and night.
And while some things are beyond my understanding,
I know that I love you and will do forever.
Until I see you again, I miss you with all my heart.
All my love... lan.
[Rotary phone dialling]
- [Bernard] Hello? - Hi, it's me.
- You all right? - I'm not coming out tonight.
Why not?
I'm gonna go home. Speak to Debbie.
Does she want to speak to you?
Dunno. I just feel the need to speak to her.
Well, if you're sure.
I'll see you Monday morning at the airport.
- You all ready and packed? - Not yet.
I'm not gonna sleep tonight. I'm like a fuckin'kid.
Yeah. Same here.
I've got all my clothes laid out on my bed and everything.
- I'll see you Monday. - Don't be late.
Don't worry. I'll be there.
I'm off.
I'm gonna go meet up with Debbie tonight.
[Man] Could we have your attention please, ladies and gentlemen?
We are ready to begin now the sale on behalf of our bank
to disperse the repossessed property
formerly owned by a Mr Stroszek.
Colonel Ralph Wade will be our auctioneer.
I'll be serving as your clerk. We're ready to begin with the auction.
[Auctioneer calling rapidly]
- [Music playing on TV] - [Man] Whoa!
[Women singing]
[White noise]
[Debbie] What are you doing here?
Don't divorce me, Debbie.
I don't want to lose you.
It's not that simple, though, is it, lan?
Is this really what you want?
No. No, I don't.
But you love someone else.
What's that got to do with us?
Everything.
You can't leave her, can you?
It's not that easy.
I've tried. She won't go away.
Well, then you've made your decision.
Go on then.
- What? - Go on, leave me alone!
Ian.
Don't come back until the morning. I'll be gone by then.
Get out!
[Sniffles and sobs]
[Door opens and closes]
- [Car door closes] - [Engine starts]
[Downtempo music playing]
[Ian] So this is permanence
Love shattered pride
What once was innocence
Turned on its side
A cloud hangs over me
Marks every move
Deep in the memory of what once was love
[rapid breathing]
[Grunting]
[Groans]
[Sighs]
[Sighing]
[Creaking]
[Table falls]
- [Natalie cries] - I'll be back in a minute.
One minute.
[Screams]
No!
[Natalie crying]
[ Joy Division: Atmosphere]
[Sobbing]
[Sobbing] Can someone help me?
Anybody, please?
Can someone help me?
[ The Killers: Shadowplay]
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